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oh! volcano.

today. the 'lava' which located at the very down side of the 'volcano' exploded in just a second. none cant even stand its ground due to the pressure that the 'volcano' created. all-out. ashes, landslides and all its content scattered everywhere.

what are the factors of the current phenomenon? we can said thousands of reason but there are only one major factor that led us to the core.
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kau nak keluar pergi kenduri kahwin, pakai lawa-lawa, melaram melampau. kau nak bagi siapa tengok kau. atau kau nak jadi bahan tarikan kat kenduri kahwin? aku kat sini tak pergi langsung kenduri kahwin kat cameron nih kau pulak sibuk2 nak attend kenduri kahwin kat sane. kau kate aku ni bajet baik sangat, macam malaikat itu la ini la, ya, aku mengaku aku tak baik, aku teruk and aku penah buat salah tapi sekarang ade aku buat? kau memang bagus dalam mengungkit hal-hal lepas. kau tak tau ape aku buat kat cameron ni demi kau. kau tak tau k. dan kau jangan buat2 tau ape aku buat. banyak benda aku dah ubah atas diri aku tanpa paksaan mana2 pihak. tapi kau tuduh aku, kau cakap aku berlakon, kau cakap aku dah puas buat, kau cakap macam2 kat aku, padahal kau takde idea atas ape yang aku buat.

history.

in koleq, each of the 5 years, i learnt 'something'. that something, which i realized as the foundation of great students, could make us a different people compared to other people. but, if we can't mastered all the element, it means nothing. 

2003 : 'unity is strength'. everyday, at 7am, we have a roll-call. we only have 3minutes to gather and the late comers will get punished. '3mins and 3secs'. that was the rule for the freshmen. when the prefects asked us to gather, we've only 3mins to gather but if we failed to do that, we'll get punished altogether. the '3secs' means we have to response when the prefects asked us in that duration. 

2004 : 'stand'. during this year, the prefects tested our stand in everything. sometimes, we did not realized they are testing us and one little mistake, we are doomed. its hard to explain this term actually.

2005 : 'pride'. we have to show, we have to prove that our batch are the best juniors in koleq. we are compulsory to set an example for our little juniors. this year, we have to maintain our best attitude in order to protect our batch's pride. once we spoiled, our batch will get underestimated by the seniors and also the teachers. later on, the prefects will do the rest (punishment).

2006 : 'unity-stand-pride'. we have to mastered all of the terms in this year in order to be the super-senior in koleq. the prefects no longer guide us this year and we are on our own.

2007 : 'brotherhood lasts forever'. no explanation because we are now brothers and nothing will get us separated (special exception to death).

this love this hate.

life. it is all about it. sometimes happy, and sometimes you are not. it's a normal thing to us. 

i started to felt something weird about myself and i think, the best way, is to keep it in my heart.  never let your anger control your mind. 'cause any unwanted/unappropriated actions, behaviors can automatically triggered the anger button and at the end, started to lose control.

" remember me, remember what i taught and perhaps, one day, you'll become strong " 

late.

was late to the class today. maybe 3.00am wasn't a good decision to sleep and wake around 8.30am. staying up late was effective to me in order to understand and memorizing my academia. i should plan back my routine and perhaps, it would be better afterwards. 

hate of being too late (just late is better lah, not 'too late'), but famous quotes said that, better late than never. 

i can take that saying as my self-philosophy.

a day with animals.

it was 2 weeks ago and it wasn't my plan after all. that was her plan. i don't think it was a good idea at the first place but seeing her begging at me to go there, by hook or by crook, i had to fulfill her wish 'cause that was my responsible to do that. at the same time, i can be with her a little bit longer and i knew after this moment, it's hard to see her. 

cute face. love this.

see. she loved raccoon! and so do i.

that raccoon was so cute. but still can't challenged my dung dung. hehe. sayang, awak lagi cute daripada rakun tuh tau!. 

looked like a zoo keeper to me. so sad. 

that crazy raccoon. i paid to see the normal one, but..

this is what we called, blur +

my dung dung posed same like the ape above her. i tried that too but sadly, i can't copycat-ed that ape.

only she can do it. 

actually, there was a lot of pictures but i think, it wasn't necessary to show it all.

that's all. 

surprise.

i'll write about what had happened today but not now. waiting for the pictures from someone special. stay tuned.

SHE. Vol. 2

days by days, our relationship became closer and closer. 26/10/2008, was the day we know each other and at that time, we're just friends. and on the 26/12/2008, we're couple. the duration is short to anyone but for me, it's like 2years. waiting for her confirmation to be couple is like waiting the snow in Malaysia. haha. just kidding.

till now, we're still couple. many things happened during the duration of time and we managed to keep the title. i think, i should stop typing this post. the more i remember, the more i wrote, it reminded me of something. my failure. i don't want to remember anything from the past. 

the end.

SHE. Vol. 1

it's like a miracle to me because at the first place, i loved the first name "Siti" and i wished my first girlfriend will have that name. coincidently, i met her. her name, Siti Najah binti Ibrahim. that was the first miracles that  happened in my life.

the way she behaved in the class attracted me pretty much as i always looked her from my table which was at the very back and sometimes i sat on the front (argh! THEY already took my port). she didn't noticed that anyway. 

kind-of-passive in class makes us shared the same type. i loved when she wore baju kurung in the class 'cause its a perfect thing for her to wear. completely matched with her softness, external characteristics and as i said, i loved to see in that way. it was around 3 month of quietly kind-of-stalking her and one thing that came out from my mind, is to be her friend, will be the best solution.

duan

thanks to Duan, my super-best-friend, arranged the introduction about me to her. sadly, she's not into me at the 1st place but positive thinking left its consequence. i'm not brave enough to talk to her and the first time i talked to her, i can't even see her eyes and from that moment, i realized one thing, i can't even stared at women/girl's eyes. that was my first weakness. 

then, we started to SMS and ON-THE-PHONE regularly. and from that, i started to know a little bit of her background. when she said, she's from Malacca, i was stoned. it was in my dream list, i really want to know and i hope to be married with someone from that state because no one in my large family where living or married to Malacca people and thanks God, she's not from the East. my mom strictly urged my siblings not to married with people of the East because of her own reason. 

to be continued...

bio quiz.

i walked into the class and everyone were preparing for the quiz. omg! i didn't any get notification about the quiz. then, i sat on my chair and asked Siew for the notes. i quickly grabbed it and started to memorize. around 10 minutes later, the quiz started. and 45mins later, quiz stopped . we have to submit our papers. but, i wonder why i can answered all the questions by only memorizing the notes in 10mins. weirdly, everyone said it was disastrous to them. i could only smile when i checked the notes, only 2 mistakes and the rest is correct (per 15 quest.) yeay! and i kept that enjoyment low-profile. hek3

late.

syg,

its 10.40 right now and i don't have credits left so i hope you will read this post.

i woke up at 9.58 and my class started at 9. never mind, ill attend the next class which is at 11. i don't have any idea about what's happening to me. i started to feel something wrong with my body. tired, blur vision (sometimes), chest pain and vitally, my backbone. i think, i should take a nap after i finished my class.

backbone

currently not in a good shape right now. the pain receptor transmitted its signal from my backbone to my brain. it's so painful and day by day, i started to felt something. whenever i want to lift up heavy things, that pain came without my invitation. i can't even straighten up my body. 

i will try to double-check the status of my backbone. last time i checked, that doc said, nothing to be worried but frankly, i started to worried about that now.

power of minds

manipulating others by blaming his/her fault that he/she didn't committed. this type of behavior lessen up his/her tense and he/she wants to control the situation, and making him/her invulnerable. 

logical thinking,supported with other appropriate elements boosten up the power of minds.

my philosophy, my mind and my life.

think!.

she do tell everything but is it everything? then, i looked at the mirror and said the same thing. maybe i'm not perfect but at least, let me know. intentionality of human minds can't be predicted but can be spotted. we can only make assumption and jump-start the power of minds. 

bunkface - situasi

it was 2008 on that time. one of my favourite song and it reminded me of one girl that now, is a grown-up woman. i dedicated this song to her because she was the the first girl that make me lost my mind. the only way to get my mind back, i started to know her and at the end, we fell in love. don't want to story the whole thing here. malu~ hihi. everytime i listened to this song, it flashback-ed our memories. sweet right? 

just listen to the song,dear. 143

ron 95 xtra.

this is the new fuel from Petronas. proven to be fuel-saving as i already tried this. more saving compared to the other brands. u guys should try this and experience the saving part.

1 litre = MYR 1.90
hoping that the price for this ron95 will stay as it is and really hope that the point for upgrading this technology is not to increase the actual price. 

support our nation's brand. tq 

good luck finals babe!

do smartly k. ill pray for your success. may lady luck smile upon u babe! 143

madness overwhelmed.

she mad at me, just now. hihi. she got mad because of me. huhu. im sorry dear. not my intention to do so. but, i just want u to know im doing the usual thingy and nothing that can be categorized as flirting. miss u dear.

skype.

skype is now available for this blog. been trying damn hard to get it functioning. fuhh!

especially for you, my dear SNI.

it was by Enrique Iglesias, entitled Tonight (I'm Loving You). hope u enjoy listening to this song,muahhx23~

info2

sebelah button HOME kat atas ni, ada button UPLOAD. so kalau korang nak upload ape2, just upload kat situ eh. senang ja. work it out from there.

p/s : dont forget to send me the code lepas upload. that's important k. thx guys.

siap jugak.

siap jugak buat blog ni. susah payah buat. lupa itu la, ini la, salah letak gadjet la. tu la kalau buto it. haha. 

dah2, maleh den pikir hal tu. den da siap buat blog ni. nantikan jela story2 kat sini eh. enjoy~